If You Loose One Thing, So It's the time for Better Thing Come To Your Life


To Loose 2 things in one day is hard enouh. I need no more. (^.^)
But this time is different: it feels empty, but less emotional; I shout! but I take no tears for my eyes; it's lonely, but I don't give a dam!

"sedih ya sedih, tapi jangan terlalu sedih, ya Tin"

Aftér Thë Ráin


I enjoy the fields of gold feelings on my way home yesterday. It’s completed with the fresh air from the heavy pouring rain and the golden light of sun reflected in the dark smooth road, leaving the hot season behind, give some heaven in these couple dusty weeks where the temperature reach high degree above the average and take the grass in to the dry surface without water….

I smell the wet soil aroma and feel the afternoon breezing, and then I said to you:
“you see, everything will be beautiful at the time. let the momentum find you, there no need to worries now, right”

Percakapan Tiga Kota

kegembiraan di sore sehari sebelumnya,
dan kita seperti penguasa jejaring operator,
persetan dengan detik 00:59:59,
kita kembalikan keriuhan ruang maya,
lagi dan terus kembali,
ruang hasil getaran pita suara,
tidak ada makan siang yang gratis?
siapa bilang... ^.^; kita sudah membuktikannnya!

percakapan tiga kota,
membuat aku ingin kembali ke jogjakarta!
kota yang tak lagi sama, katamu
tapi tetap menyimpan berbaris-baris tanya,
retakan kenangan, pasir-pasir yang menyelip di kaki,
dan kerinduan pada aroma kayu bakar di pagi hari,

temans,
wait for me... di bulan ke delapan,
aku akan tidur lagi di kasurmu,
menikmati pecahan aquariummu,
menahan alergiku pada kapuk-kapuk kamarmu,
dan mencoba berdamai dengan wangi kamboja,
hiii... aku penakut tau....

juga,
pada saat itu aku ingin melihatmu,
keluar dari galerimu,
melakukan apa yang selama ini tertinggal,
itu kan bulan wisuda, manis,
bulan pesta pora dan jejingkrakan,
jadi kau harus hadir juga…
dengan kebayamu yang berwarna ungu,
ungu yang sama dengan matamu....

June 11, 2006

For Manut Nite Memory of Aceh Coffee



A few months ago in my visit to Jogja, I step by and drinking some glasses of coffee at “Manut Nite” near Klebengan area. That night, my old friend pick some choices of coffee for me, he insisted that I have to give a try to drink Aceh Coffee, it’s a thick and bitter coffee, but I guess it didn’t work for me, cause it makes me dizzy and sleepy (^.^) kind of out of line, since people drinking coffee to stay aware and awake.

At Manut Nite, we can have many kind coffees from around Indonesia; they have Medan Coffee, Java Coffee, Lampung Coffee, Merapi Coffee, and others. It’s a nice place to gathering with friend, it open until late or sometimes even until early morning. There, we found many groups of people who enjoy their discussion and spending hours of time.

For me that place is warmer than any coffee shops that I ever visits. That’s why when my coffee head Austrian friends came, I want to take him there, but it’s impossible, since we don’t have our agenda in Jogja, so we just stop by at Hero Dept. Store and buy some instant coffee, kakakak I hope that’s enough. Maybe latter on his country, he can have Aceh Coffee at the local Starfucks…ups Starbucks Coffee I mean (^.^)

Yup, from the news in Indonesia's Investment Coordinating Board Website, “Starbucks Corp. has signed a deal to buy coffee from Indonesia's tsunami-ravaged Aceh province, as Indonesia is the fourth-largest coffee-bean producer in the world and Aceh's fertile soil produces about 40 percent of Indonesia's premium Arabica coffee beans”. It has to be in fair price, of course!

We can also find Aceh Coffee development from The Coffee Forum Meeting last year, they have APED project (Aceh Partnerships for Economic Development) for infrastructure development, production aid, farm rehabilitation, working capital and staffing for the coffee research agency.

In being positive, hopefully these can be a good starts for Indonesian Economic Development.

Wondering on Idol Concept

It's just yesterday when my best friend hysterically talking about the expensive ticket to Jamie Cullum up coming concert. She is a total fan of Jamie Cullum and Michael Schumaker. She can crying all night long to accepting MS retired, for she already preparing the budget to go to Sepang this year in watching MS racing. Hem… for me that is totally weird and I can’t put my empathy on it—but she can crying on me still.

Until now, I’m still wondering about the idol concept, how can “everybody” surround me have their own Idol, while I’m not. In my ideal concept of Idol, it should be the one that perfect in everything, and I’m afraid we all know ‘no bodies perfect’, nothing can be anything. From then I wondering, can I have an idol? why I never have one?.

Okay, once I've been like couple of people for what they did, what their opinion or what their style, but then I saw weakness on each of them, then I get bored soon, then I turn to other things. Is it because that I always see everybody is as the same like me and else, so then I never be a fan?

For me, it’s more interesting to studying people; analyze this and that from them. There so many kinds of people out there, one is different from other, kindness in everybody and devil inside them. Analyze them is super for me.

For long time ago, this thing becomes my habit since the day I don’t remember. I do simulate people on that--bad me, kekekek, I do watching people, goggling for one attitudes theory and analyzing it. You know, it’s because I like this statement a lot:

“always see why people do things they do, not what they do”

Evermore people dynamically change, from good to bad, from bad to good, in a relativism theory of course.

People do have the joy and problem. People do sad and happy. But people can’t be a God for any kind of reason—even in God I still questioning: why and how.

Me, myself also dynamically change, once I like this, then I like something else. So, yes I don’t think I need an Idol. I think all this time, I only idolizing my self. (^.^) hihihih.

salsa with me?



one fine morning in bulaksumur area, and we get in to a serious discussion about Uses and gratification theory.

but I didn't remember it as the morning when we be a master in Uses and gratification theory, or understand that this theory explained about the reason for people choices when they consumize the media, no I'm not (^.^) cause we're not--kakakakak this what make our tutor mad, i think.

salsa is my memory from that beautiful morning, the energetic dance from the cuban.

eventhough javanese dance stil number one in my heart,this six steps dance amaze me in celebrating my body, have fun and sexy :p

with your 1-2-3 steps which still buzing around my head, and the rainbow from sun-through-the-leaves that i kept in my mind, this day i dance again for the feeling of missing the old time dancing with you...